We all probably have that one role on our belly, that height, the skin condition or nose that we feel insecure about. I know that I have had many different insecurities about my looks and started obsessing over my body and weight loss. I've felt insecure about talking in serious settings because I always felt like people wouldn't take me seriously due to me loud, bubbly (and often goofy) personality. I would often feel inferior to other women of God because of my thin, tiny voice that I didn't feel was as powerful as others when they prayed and spoke. What that caused me was that I was constantly counting my calories, weighing my food and stepped on the scale several times a day. I used to love the feeling of hunger more than being full and never felt fit and slim enough. It caused me to decline several invitations to Conferences and meetings because I didn't feel confident and qualified enough to speak in these places.
The reality is that as women we have many very real and serious insecurities that I don't want to sugarcoat or overspiritualies. I always want to keep it real here on Ashley En Vogue. We've all woken up before and simply didn't like our reflection in the mirror. There are just these days. But how are we supposed to be these strong, confident and bold women as Christians? We're expected to be strong without being masculine. Confident without being arrogant and bold without losing our kindness. Confidence can be a wage word considering the fact that there's a thin line between confidence and haughtiness as well as self love and selfishness.